Do I hear them calling?
Do I hear them crying?
In hunger... in pain...
I see them...
In the cold, crying
The aged and homeless,
street children roaming,
begging... pleading...
alms... anything to spare...
I can see them...
I can hear them...
I was touched,
seeing them, hearing them,
yet... I do nothing

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Roy
December 5, 1989
5:20 PM
Angeles City
Philippines

I have been told a thousand times
That it is such a ridiculous thing
To fear of the things to come
Or things that might have been

But do they mean what they say?
Or do they understand?
What is it that bothers me
For them to speak with authority?

A man like me rarely speaks
Of the things that fill me with anxiety
Cause I know they're just nonsense
But do emotions know how to think?

But then again, I can hide
All those senseless fears inside
By doing so I keep my dignity
But I say not the same for my sanity.


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Roy
October 4, 1991
10:00 AM
Angeles City
Philippines

another old poem I wrote in my younger years......

With the coming of the new year and wanting to be an optimist this time (although I admit I would need to exert more effort on that), I am keen on finding a Home Based Business that can supplement the meager income I'm getting so far. I am looking for something which can be done passively and still earn for me a decent money.

In my search for more income on the internet, I am led to a site that might give the opportunity that I am looking for. That site is the Plug-In Profit Site. The testimonies on the site's homepage looks promising, although I have yet to explore on it.

And maybe I will.

The site has a lot of Home Business Ideas that can help me get that additional income I so badly needed. In this coming year, I am really keen on trying every opportunity I can lay my hands on. And since this site promotes affiliate marketing, among others, it can be a great source of passive income while I try to look more income opportunities.

So if you are like me who is on the lookout for these online opportunities, why don't you follow me at the site's URL at http://www.HomeBusiness.us and together we can explore this money-making opportunity.

They say that a new year brings new hope.... yeah, just like another rising sun brings in a new day... it really doesn't take a genius to figure that out. The sage who said that must be really proud of himself now.... who would have thought then that a rising sun means a new day?

Okay, where are we? I think I'm lost... oh yes! The New Year!

So, can we expect a better 2009? Should it really bring us new hope, better chances, and more wealth?

Come on! Stop kidding yourself! If you didn't do good in 2008, what makes you think you'll get better in 2009?!

I hate to be the one breaking this to you... the 'New Year, new hope' is nothing but a fallacy! A phrase coined by people who always wait for fortune to come in dropping on their lap.

There is really nothing wrong in having positive thoughts, is there? There's nothing wrong in holding on to hope either...

But by all means, get your butt off that chair and do something! Do you really think wealth would pop-out of that computer monitor landing on your lap?! Give me a break!

Yeah, you're right. I'm talking to myself again here... and you're nothing but an unfortunate witness to this event... or are you?

The new year is upon us, don't expect it to be a better year.... DO SOMETHING TO MAKE IT A BETTER YEAR!

Which reminds of a quotation I read in one of those self-help books....

"If you keep on doing what you're doing... you'll keep on getting what you're getting!"

Well, it seems that this blog wasn't satisfied with the first interview, that it wants to get me into the 'seat' again. Since I really don't have anything better to do (being sick, cold and all), I decided to give in to his whims.

Me: Okay, so what is it this time?

Sugar Coated World (SCW): Hey, loosen up! Where not starting yet and you're already uptight. You are really getting into your character here.

Me: Ya, ya, ya, go ahead with your questions.

SCW: So how's your Christmas?

Me: So, do you want to end this interview right this instance?

SCW: C'mon, don't be such a spoiler, answer the question.

Me: Of all people, I mean blogs, you would ask me that question?! You know how my Christmas is! And how it will be for the years to come!

SCW: Hmmm.... looks like I won't get any decent answer from you on that. So, how's the blogosphere treating you lately?

Me: Well, if you would only get a higher page rank I would be able to get more writing opportunities and earn more, perhaps I can get more respect then.

SCW: Me?! Page rank?! Hey, it's your fault! It's you who is posting craps on me!

Me: Craps?! You call my posts craps?!

SCW: What would you call all those hatred, angst, pains, frustrations and other emotional outburst? You think people would love to hear you whine?

Me: But you were created for that purpose?!

SCW: And even for that reason, you rarely get me updated, ei?

Me: Look who's getting into who's character now.

SCW: Okay, let's change the topic. I can see that you're quite a celebrity now. More people know you and your letters since that TV stint you had.

Me: Yeah, it's was quite a ride I admit. Who would've have thought that talking to the dead can get me into the limelight.

SCW: Of course it will! It is full of emotion! It's just the perfect bait for the media! Don't you know that?

Me: Hey,!I didn't create that blog just to catch any media's attention or to create some hype! You know that!

SCW: Well, at least you got some positive reactions. You brought inspirations to others because of your letters. Some people realized that they should show their love to their family while they're still alive.

Me: Those were the positive comments. But you know what? I followed some links, and you wouldn't believe what were some of the reaction was.

SCW: What?!

Me: Some thinks it's creepy, you know talking to the dead and stuff. Some even take me for a lunatic, writing all those letters to a departed love one, and get this, one even took note of my imperfect English like she was my grammar teacher!

SCW: Hahaha! People have their opinion, you can't take that away from them.

Me: Yeah! Like I care!

SCW: And what would they think of now when they see you talking to yourself? Hahaha!

Me: Hahaha!

SCW: Hey, thanks a lot for this opportunity. This is the nicest conversation I had with you so far. But before we wrap up, I got some friends here who has some message for you.

Me: Really?! You have friends? Hahaha!

SCW: Cut that crap, let's hear them out, here they are.

Be Inspired Now: Hi there brother! I know how hard it is for you lately. Just hold to HIM, He sees everything and He is in charge. Take care 'bro!

more than copy-paste: Hey! Thank you for making me a better blog than just a mere copy-paste. I'm enjoying it all now. Merry Christmas! Just hang in there!

Money Online: Hi! Just keep on going. Money may be important, but it's not the most important thing in the world. We can get there in time, we don't need to hurry. In the meantime, spend more time with your kids. It's holiday!

Letters To Mama: Hi! Next to this blog, I'm the one who knows all your frustrations. You may not believe it, but I do send all those letters to your wife. She knows everything, and she is with you. Take care.

Kapampangan blog: As much as I would like to talk in my native tongue, my colleagues here might not understand and may not like it. Anyway, this is just what I have to say, "Agyu 'ta yan, 'bro!" We can do it brother!

Roysville: Honestly, you are a revelation to me. I didn't know you had all those business sense in you. Keep sharing those, who knows? Someday, we might get our own book published ;)

House Of Puroy: Although I have remained to be just a blog and no longer an enterprise, I am still happy being with you. We brought some attention to a lot people regarding how service and product expectation should be. They may not always agree, but I know we can always back up our claim. Keep it up!

The Struggling Blogger: Looking forward to more struggles with you. Just like my brothers here, I will be with you all the way. I know all your plans and I'm backing you up 100%! Let's move forward brother!

Sugar Coated World: What? Do you really think I will let this pass without me delivering a message too? I may be your interviewer right now, but I'm still one of your blogs. Anyway, I just want to say that, please don't mind all those things that I throw at you sometimes. It's just what I am, you know, the 'character' thing. But I'm always behind you... always.

REFLECTIONS: Hello, I've been with you from the start and I know I will be with you 'til the end. I'm still looking forward to our book getting published, I know it will come true someday. Take care. Just keep writing.

Me: (sniff) where would I be without you guys.

My wife's fruit salad, her cooking... her energetic effort to make the holidays memorable for us in spite of her condition then... her laughter everytime our kids play during the parlor games... her wish to have a simple celebration with our kids....

But most of all, Christmas reminds me that...

she's no longer with us...


Christmas won't be the same anymore...

There are some things that you just can't sugar-coat. No matter how hard you try, true intentions will always show.

Watch the video to see what I mean.



Please spread the word, spread the video.

"Won't these ever stop coming?" I keep on asking myself. Why can't I continue just moving forward? Why do these episodes keep on coming back haunting me?

I know, I won't get the answers.

It's our wedding anniversary today... all throughout the day I was staring at the computer monitor. Thinking whether I would write another letter, or I would stand up, go to the kitchen and prepare something... or take the children out, perhaps to the mall to celebrate the occasion.

But sunset came and I haven't accomplished anything, I wasn't able to decide on doing anything. At a time, some tears managed to escape, I needed to wear shades so my kids won't notice it.

Then there's that ghost of pessimism again... the feeling of being a loser sinking in again... yes, these are what I call episodes.

Until when these will happen, I really don't know.

Honestly, I'm tired of these.

I thought I'm already over these... these episodes...

Just when I thought that I found a great blogger support group have I crossed on one that is so self-engrossed. I never thought I'd see the day... after all we are all bloggers. Aren't we supposed to support each other?

But when you see bloggers slamming bloggers, will you stop and think, are there really 'better' bloggers? Or maybe, there really exist an 'elite' list of bloggers - demi-gods of blogging if you may, who thinks that they can say anything and bully us 'not-so-great' bloggers as if trying to push us out of the blogosphere.

First, they looked down on free-hosted blogs, and now they damned the blogs who gets paid for their posts.

What is this about? I really can't understand. Bloggers who are trying to earn decent money, instead of trying to con everyone into signing any bogus affiliates scams, are suddenly 'low level' individuals?

Which hypocrites doesn't earn from blogging?

DAMNED THEM!

I'm sure, they will have their day soon!

I hate it when they do that! Why do they have to count the days 'til Christmas? As if counting it will make any difference... it will come, whether we like it or not.

Whether I like it or not.

Suddenly, I'm the new Mr. Scrooge of Christmas.

No, not really. Honestly, it really doesn't make any difference to me anyway, whether it's Christmas or not. I just don't care.

I don't think I need to explain, do I?

Sure, go ahead with your celebrations. I don't forbid you. I don't have that right. In fact, if you greet me on Christmas, I'll greet you back so as not to dampen your Christmas spirit.

But then again, like I said, it really won't make any difference on my part.

Honestly, there are more questions popping in my mind. But this one is not one of them. The source of the $ 8 Complete Rx Eyeglasses has some buzz for the holidays.

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I've been there... not long ago... watching a love one fight for dear life. It's not easy. You're torn between holding on and letting go, for exactly the same reason - because you love them.

This morning, we rushed my auntie to the hospital. She was pale, she was not breathing. Thank God she still has pulse... heartbeat... albeit weak and irregular. My cousins were devastated. They've lost my uncle last year... and now my auntie, their mother is in life and death situation.

And in this situation, you can't help but ask, why? Why is this happening? Why did God let this come unto us? Why is He not helping us? Why? Why? Why? It never ends... yet we never get the answer.

Nobody knows God's ways... it's beyond our comprehensions. Sure, it's easy to say that God knows what's best for us... especially when you are not in the situation. It's really easy to judge when you're just on the outside looking in. We think we understand... but do we really?

Nobody knows... nobody understands... even those who think that they do.

Honestly, for me, the best that I can do now is ask.

If only I could get back to those who took advantage of me and wife when she was still here. We have been conned, bullied, and lied at. Unfortunately, it was not our nature to get even. I wish I would know how to fight for my right.

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So, if you were involved in an accident recently, or maybe even for quite some time now, why not give First Personal Injury a call. Who knows? You might get something once you learned about your rights. That is the only legal way to get even to others who caused you harm.

I really wish they have emotional injury claims.

These days, there's so much waste and chemicals polluting our environment, and these are damaging our one and only planet. And daily, these are increasing at an alarming rate. Each of us should do our share, no matter how small our act can be, to preserve the Earth for the future generations.

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Whenever I am writing a blog post, most of the time the article takes a life of its own. That is why I end up writing something that I never intended to write in the first place. Yet I do not edit nor delete them.

Just like my recent post, An effort to raise funds, my own little way of spreading the word about two angels who needed help. I blogged about it because I know how it feels to be there, to be helpless. And just like I said in the post "I know how it feels to beg."

I never really intended to write that there, but somehow the story reminds me of my situation then. Although it was of a different case, it was a situation wherein I was in need. I was practically begging... looking out for money to spend for my wife's next dialysis session.

I am thankful to those who have supported us then.

But most of all, it also reminded me that some people then looked at me as a con artist. People who took me as an opportunist who is only out to get some money... and it has brought my already dampened spirit lower than low.

That is why when I read the news in Philippine Star, without really anything much to share, I did the next best thing that I can do - I blogged about it, so that at least the word could spread around. Even though I just have a small influence with a small number of readers, I just hope it could amount to something.

That way, their families wouldn't have to beg themselves. They won't be looked down upon... they won't be doubted. And maybe through the power of blogs, they might receive the help that they need.

Believe me, it's not easy being a beggar... especially when you're perceived to be someone who should be successful.

Nouveau Riche is a real estate investment university that provides students the ins and outs of real estate investment. Providing its student an educational environment, it utilizes ISD or Instructional System Design, which is a time tested principles adopted by all higher-education institutions. This system accelerates learning and maximizes retention, which makes the students confident in facing the real world of real estate investment.

Every student of Nouveau Riche has a potential of making it big and becoming a big name in the real estate investment industry. This is because they are being thought by professional real estate investors, people who are practicing the profession themselves. These people are unselfishly sharing their experiences, know-how and techniques that made successful in the industry.

And now that Nouveau Riche is being lead by a new CEO, former University of Phoenix President Dr. Laura Palmer Noone, who brings with her years of experience in handling an educational institution. Nouveau Riche can be expected to be a more dynamic institution which will provide hope and education to their students.

The real estate provides great opportunity, but it is available to those who are qualified and are willing to grab it. And one can only be qualified once he has the proper knowledge to handle the intricacies of the industry.

Although I don't really want to use the word envy, we can't help but feel that way when we hear of rags to riches stories of people we know. While we may feel happy for other people's fortune, we also wish that we could be as lucky too. But guess what, rising from rags to riches isn't all about luck but hard work, commitment and dedication.

This is what Efren 'Bata' Reyes gave to become a world champion billiard player. Manny Pacquiao did not reach his status overnight but through years of continuous training and discipline. The same goes true with our bowling hero Paeng Nepomuceno. Nothing is really sweeter than the fruits of long and hard labor, instead of instant fortune who doesn't really last long.

This is what the students of Nouveau Riche are experiencing, reaping the fruits of their success because they dared accept the challenge of the opportunity. The opportunity of making it big in the real estate investment business.

Nouveau Riche actually means 'New Rich' in French. No wonder then than graduates of the Noveau Riche University are fast becoming Nouveau Riche themselves. They have become a living proof that rags to riches stories can happen... if you work hard for it.

“Why can’t you move on?” I am puzzled. What does moving on means? When can one say that he can’t move on or he has already moved on? Do I strike you as someone who was not able to move on?

After being exposed on national TV because of my letters to my wife, there are not few who said that maybe it’s time for me to move on. Move on?! Again, what does moving on mean?

One fellow told me, “You’re still young, you can remarry. You need to MOVE ON. It doesn’t mean you have forgotten your wife.” There’s one interpretation of MOVING ON, getting married again. Is that really what “moving on” mean?

One comment that I received says “I don’t think this is what your wife want you to do. She wants you to MOVE ON, take care of your kids and your future. Stop this foolishness.” And I take it that the comment meant for me to stop writing my letters and ‘get a life!’ so to speak.

In my 40 years of existence in this planet, I never lived based on anybody else’s standard. And I’m not going to start now. I don’t think their definition of MOVING ON suits my own… and quite frankly “I don’t give a damn” (I always wanted to say that!)

I have a life. I am happy with my kids. Getting married again is not my priority and me going to stop writing my letters is out of the question. Who would know what my wife wants? You think you know her better than me?

Fortunately for me, there are more supporters than these naysayers. And these people, though I may not reply to them directly, has given me more strength to continue with what I’m doing. People who sees beyond skepticism and believe that there could actually be an internet in heaven.

As for those people who insist on their definition of moving on, I’ll say “thank you very much, but by your standards, then I’d rather be stagnant”

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After the much publicized exposure on Rated K, I’d like to make some clarifications or answer some questions, which often were asked to me by those who saw me. Perhaps, others also have these questions on their mind.

How did you get featured?
How did they find you? Did you send them a letter? Did you send your stories? No, I didn’t write them nor any TV station for that matter. Actually, I am really surprised as to how they were able to stumble upon my blog which I don’t even promote like my other blogs.

Did they pay you?
No. Not the kind of payment that you expect. However, I did receive a kind of remuneration which they called honorarium. But it is really an amount way below what anybody would expect from an institution like them.

And lastly, not really the one who would want to burst that iconic bubble that Rated K painted for me. But I am really not the perfect loving husband that I was featured in the episode. I am far from being perfect, I have my faults. Our relationship is not a perfect one. Just like any marriages, we had our struggles.

But when it mattered the most, my wife and I, together with our children have stick it out. Because, we’re all that she has, and she’s all that we need. There have adjustments and sacrifices, especially on the part of the kids. But all through these, the experience made us a more solid family.

Being in a financial rut isn’t very nice. With your back against the wall, with no one or nowhere to turn to… is there is still hope? Perhaps, there is. With the help of Nouveau Riche University.

A real estate investment university, this institution is providing hope for people who have been in the slump for quite a long time. Providing a very conducive classroom-like environment to induce better retention and faster learning, Nouveau Riche helps its students gain knowledge on the ins and outs of real estate investment.

Knowing how lucrative the real estate industry can be, students of Nouveau Riche are better equipped than other real estate investors who did not study at Nouveau Riche University. That is because teaching the students are professional real estate investors who are already successful in their chosen field. And unselfishly, they are sharing their secrets of success to their students.

From inside the classroom and out to the streets, students of Nouveau Riche University are guided, assisted, mentored, and advised until they finally get the confidence to go out on their own. Nouveau Riche’s track record boasts of a long list of success stories from its graduate who are now established real estate investors themselves.

So why sulk in the corner when there is hope. Visit the Nouveau Riche website now and start carving your future in real estate investment.

The Nouveau Riche University has helped a lot of individuals achieve their dreams of financial freedom. And they did this by teaching them the basics as well as the advanced techniques and methods in real estate investment.

But in spite of this, Nouveau Riche Scam rumors have been proliferating in the internet. And for people who doesn’t really know the real story, they could easily be carried away and believe in these rumors.

But the testimonies of the hundreds of alumni of the Nouveau Riche University would not lie. Dispelling these Nouveau Riche Scam claims are the inspirational stories of people who believed in their system and are now professional real estate investors.

These people who actually thought they were a hopeless case because they have tried everything and yet their troubles only seem to grow. Until they stumbled upon and took the chance on the Nouveau Riche system, and the rest as they say is history.

These inspiring stories of people who were able to bounce back because from financial deficit to financial success are all featured in the Nouveau Riche blog. Serving as real testimonies on the veracity of the Nouveau Riche system and finally putting an end to all those Nouveau Riche Scam rumors.

So, would you just believe in every rumor? I’d say, get all your facts first. Because you might miss out on a fine opportunity.

When is kindness a liability? When it is being used against you or should I say, when it is being used to take advantage of you. Or is that really kindness or being an absolute naive or shall we say stupidity?

I don’t know why but it seems that I don’t have it in me to impose or to assert any rightful claim that I might have. I grew up believing that if only everybody should only do what is right, then there is really nothing to ask from anyone. Because everything will be given, as it should be given… and everyone will be given what is due them.

But what I can’t understand it that I seem to attract the opposite of the people I was hoping to meet and believe. Save for a few who do mean well, more are out to make a sucker out of me… and usually they succeed.

We all have to look out for ourselves, I know. But should that mean taking advantage of other’s misfortunes as well?